you know the look? the one that tells you in the space of one second that the person giving it thinks you’re crazy, out of your mind, obnoxious, overwhelming, scary, and quite possibly annoying?Â yes, that look.Â i find that i have a tendency to provoke the look quite often.
i was there in a cramped elevator full of quiet smelly strangers.Â our eyes were all fixed intently on watching the number go higher knowing with each change we were that much closer to our freedom from the stuffy confined space we found ourselves in.Â my phone jingled — text had just come in.Â “someone’s got a blackberry,” a woman muttered recognizing the sound.Â “it’s me!” i gladly volunteered.Â i held up my lovely pink & white phone for all to see as i said, “isn’t it sooooo pretty?”Â the woman just gave me the look while everyone else remained silent.
i brought a friend to a new mexican place in town.Â i stood on one side of the counter as the worker stood on the other asking if i wanted this kind of salsa or that kind of cheese or would i like some sour cream with that as well?Â rather excitedly i asked, “can i really get guacamole with that?”Â she nodded yes.Â “oooh!Â i just love this place!” i exclaimed while yes,Â i’m afraid to say, clutching my hands to my heart.Â she gave me the look and replied dryly, “i can tell.”
surrounded by faces i thought i knew i yelled into a cell phone that wasn’t mine (or my conversation to be yelling into) and hugged every neck i could get and pranced about to greet more faces and then noticed the quiet girl standing right there who i’d never seen before.Â i introduced myself by name and then knowing she had observed my shouting and prancing and laughing and hugging felt the need to add, “i’m really not a freak all the time.”Â she nodded her head ever so slowly to politely agree with me while she gave me the look. i knew she would be staying as far away from me as she could the rest of the evening.
i was once told that i shouldn’t treat the world as if it’s my best friend.Â people think it odd.
i’m thinking they were right.