perhaps it’s the grey day.  maybe the melancholy notes around.  i think it’s a heart that is tired of trying for the wrong things and ultimately falling to failure over and over. i’ve been wrong, Lord.  in the middle of ordering flowers for an elderly man coming out of surgery, telling a crying spirit that… Continue reading He will delight.

“Everday, I lose my way and the steps back to the Way can be counted, one blessing at a time. Gratitude glues us to God.” she caught my attention today as i scanned photos and words quickly.  lose my way?  steps back?  glues us to God?  i feel as though i’ve lost my way recently. … Continue reading grateful heart.

sunday night.  lounging on the parents bed.  feeling completely wiped. yup, that’s me. i’m tired.  i went on a bit of a road trip this weekend.  a 32 hour road trip while i stopped by 2 different places to say a quick hello.  and i was all by my lonesome self.  actually, i wasn’t very… Continue reading home.

there are days when i’m to be silent and find Him. O LORD, you have searched me and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. You hem me… Continue reading psalm 139

after living with a very not-that-great-but-it’s-free nokia phone for over a year, i decided that it was time for a change.  so with a bit of a deal i spent some bucks and purchased a blackberry pearl. i went into the AT&T store convinced that i wouldn’t need anything but a simple phone that would… Continue reading my phone journey

all last summer he worked as an engineer testing glass or some such thing that my tiny brain will never totally understand and i was working in my rather plain but very pretty blue office. every single day the two liner emails would go back and forth.  he was always asking, “what are we doing… Continue reading little yellow goodness

i used to be filled with so much angst because of the amount of rain that’s come the last few months.  my perspective was that my summer was being completely stolen from me.  but with all the having to learn to live and deal with it i’ve done, i’m starting to get rather used to… Continue reading it’s raining. it’s pouring.

a friend happened to be tagged in two photos and i found myself looking.  168 pictures in an album that belongs to someone i’ll probably never meet or talk to. but this brown haired beauty just spent time in costa rica on what appears to have been a sort of sports missions trip.  i looked… Continue reading if i have not love

i have this week off.  i’m home but i don’t work.  ’tis wonderful. i vacuum and dust.  i fold laundry and consolidate piles that have collected in the house.  i go out and buy new bedding that’s yellow & blue & gold.  i plan a movie night and schedule to have my car inspected.  i… Continue reading no work. no, none at all.

i fear much.  i fear missing the Lord.  i fear wrong decisions.  i fear not hearing right.  i fear the state of the world.  i fear ending up just like those who have slipped and fallen away.  i fear moving beyond this place and season.  i fear staying where i am.  i fear not living… Continue reading HE will watch