my head doesn’t feel like it’s been screwed on properly for the last 24 hours and although all the writing mistakes that have been made since then would dictate that i should not try posting right now, i find myself with a free evening and a blog that needs an update so i will. the… Continue reading tests and tears and busyness

i’m home this summer. i’m home like i was home back when i was twelve. i’m home for the summer with no plans. i’m home with plans to do everything. i’m home and will work. i’m home and will do nothing. really, i look forward to summer because all those “everythings” are really just “nothings.”… Continue reading summer is starting

i love this gabriel boy so much. the last time i spent the night at the little yellow house i experienced the greatest pleasure possible. at 6am the three oldest piled into bed with aunt “mouissa” and told me all their stories. gabriel told me of his dream to play basketball like uncle merrick and… Continue reading pictures

so i’m learning. learning how to get my priorities straight. learning how to prioritize. learning what to prioritize. when people used to ask me what i loved i’d always say: my Jesus, my family, my friends. we’re working on getting back to that. time is of value — i know that. and what i spend… Continue reading learning.

sometimes a girl has gotta have some fun in her life.  forget the whole “20” deal and having to be responsible and act mature.  besides, everyone says that i’m in limbo right now since i’m neither a teen nor an adult so i figure this is the prime time to do the crazy things i… Continue reading team van awesome cowabunga!

i’ve stared at this screen for a very long time tonight. i’d type and then like joe fox in my favorite movie, i’d hit the backspace key over and over frustrated with my attempts at writing something that might amuse you. i’d close the lid to this laptop and sit and talk for a few… Continue reading purposeless post

tonight someone asked, “what do you want to be?” and as if on cue, i felt myself starting to hyperventilate. okay. so actually, i didn’t and i don’t. but i’ve always thought my life would be much more fun if i was just a tad bit more dramatic. maybe i’d have more stories if i… Continue reading i will walk by faith

i’m convinced that parents put their children to bed too early. sure, i understand why they do it — who doesn’t want some peace and quiet as early as possible after long days? but when i think of bedtime as a young girl, i think of long hours laying in the dark, waiting for sleep… Continue reading children’s prayer

this is all i’ve been thinking about today as i set tables …as i drove family members to where they needed to be …as i ran in and out of stores purchasing the last-minute necessities to make Easter day that much more wonderful …as i tried on cardigan #1 then cardigan #2 then cardigan #1… Continue reading this is all.

i used to be a blogging fiend. i’m not anymore. but i promise, i’m going to start trying to get back into the groove. maybe you won’t read (maybe nobody reads anymore), but somehow it’s good for me. my ramblings and dreaming in writing needs to start again. so i’m here. in california. i saw… Continue reading from califonia